Clara Castanho’s pregnancy, as a result of the rape, was kept secret, but the story became public. The Brazilian actress, who gave her son up for adoption, now tells of the various violence she experienced throughout the process, namely by those who had a duty to protect her.
Actress Clara Castanho – who Globo fans are used to seeing as the beautiful Paulinha in “Amor à Vida” or the little Clara in “Amor Eterno Amor” – conveys Brazil with a terrifying story. The 21-year-old told her followers that she had been raped which resulted in a pregnancy, which was discovered days before giving birth. The case, which must remain confidential by law, was discovered, and Clara ended up publicly justifying the option to hand the child over for adoption.
“This is the most difficult reckoning of my life. I thought I would carry this pain and this weight with me alone. I have always kept my emotional life private. Exposing it in this way terrifies me, excites me and speaks of pain. I cannot be silent when I see people conspiring and creating versions of hateful violence. And the trauma I suffered. I violated. Remembering that episode brings a sense of death, because something died inside of me,” he began to report, in a message posted on Instagram.
In the letter, the young artist states that she was not in her city or close to her family or friends when she was a victim of the crime, and explains that she did not report “shame” and guilt. authorities at that time. “I had an illusion that if I pretended it didn’t happen, I might forget it, and get over it. But that’s not what happened,” he continues, adding that what he did was take a pill the next morning and do some tests, trying, “as much as possible,” to carry on. To live, focus on family and work.
“But even as I tried to live a normal life, the damages of violence accompanied me. I stopped sleeping, I stopped trusting people, and I let the shadows overwhelm me. An endless sadness I’ve never felt before.”he says, saying only the family knows what happened.
She wrote, “The facts so far are enough to hurt me, but they don’t stop here,” and ended up revealing that she knew she was pregnant, when she was already at the end of her pregnancy. “It was a shock. My world collapsed. My period was normal, and so was my body. I had neither gained weight nor had my stomach. In that moment of the exam, I felt violated again, guilty again,” she said, regretting that the doctor who had seen her had not He had no sympathy. “I was not a pregnant woman of will and desire, I suffered violence. However, she forced me to listen to the heart of the child, and said that 50% of the DNA was mine and that I would have to love him. There”to remember.
The actress explains that the baby she was expecting was the result of violence that was devastating and she didn’t have the emotional conditions to give her love and care. Realizing her inability to play the role of a mother, she made the decision, which she considers “more dignified and humane,” to give the child up for adoption, which included psychological counseling and various legal procedures. Clara says that when the baby was born, doctors who had a “legal obligation to respect confidentiality” did not respect her, and ended up contacting several journalists who were informed of the pregnancy.
Someone promised not to publish it, but the news ended up being published and “a thousand false information and cruel and false inferences came with it.” “You have no idea the pain I feel. Everything I did was thought to protect the child’s life and future. Every step is documented in accordance with the law. The child deserves to be cared for by a loving family, suitably qualified for adoption, that she has no memories of such a traumatic event. Nor You need to know that it was the result of such cruel violence.”.
After being “raped by a man first,” Clara continues to be “raped repeatedly by many other people” who judge her. “The truth is hard, but that’s the real story. This is the pain that tears me apart,” she says, noting that she is supported by her family and takes care of her physical and mental health.
“It was not my desire to make my story public, but I hope that whatever has happened to me helps the women and girls at least not feel guilt or shame about the violence they suffer. Giving up a child for adoption is not the crime, it is an act of utmost care. Build myself. I count on your understanding.”finish.
The powerful testimony comes at a turbulent time, when the right to abortion, specifically on the American continent, is under threat. In Brazil, the case of an 11-year-old girl who became pregnant after being a rape victim He was pressed by the judge and ANow – in the meantime it is being investigated – to move forward with the pregnancy, in recent weeks, the newspaper and television agenda. And to the north, in the United States, The recent abolition of the constitutional right to abortion The conservative majority in the Supreme Court, decided that it sparked demonstrations across the country and caused a rift around the world.
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